On March 17, 2019, it will be 20 years since my gorgeous daughter Bree passed away. She was just three years old.
20 years simply feels surreal. How can it possibly be 20 years since I last saw her face, kissed her goodnight, caressed her chubby cheek?
Time is both a gentle friend and an unwelcome guest. Yes, time has helped ease the pain and the utter desolation that comes with new, raw grief no longer completely engulfs you. But time also blurs the edges of your memories.
As with all our memories, some things can be recalled easily, while other memories are less pronounced and when you lose your child at a young age, you have less memories to hold onto, but time still cruelly blurs them indiscriminately.
What I have learnt though, is that while I have the memories of my life with Bree and what made her the bright spark that she was, if those memories aren’t shared, those memories die with me. Last year I heard a quote by Terry Pratchett, “No one truly dies while their name is still being spoken” and it bangs around in my head now like a loud drum.
I have never really shared Bree’s story, everything about her existence that made her my beautiful, unique child. I now need other people to know her too. It feels strange to be doing it after 20 years, but it also feels completely terrifying and overwhelming. How do you suddenly open up a box of memories that has been locked away for so long, when there is so much emotion attached to it? But the more I have been talking about her lately, as much as I am crying way more at the moment, Bree feels more alive to me than she has since she passed away.
To acknowledge the 20 year anniversary this year, I will be walking the Camino Trail and sharing my journey, while sharing stories of Bree. Hopefully, while on this emotional journey, I can achieve my goal of raising $8,000 for The Compassionate Friends.
Please follow my journey so I can introduce you to my beautiful Bree.
9 thoughts on “About Bree”
Bree is gorgeous. Her cheeky girl energy shines through in this photo.
A lot like her mother ? 💕😘
Beautiful Karen and your gorgeous Daughter – here with you beautiful lady xo
Thank you so much lovely. It is my beautiful friendships with what I call my bereaved tribe that gives me the strength to do all of this. xx
Hi Karen, my heart goes out to you, and so pleased that you have introduced Bree to me and awakened and shared the memories you have of Bree. All the best on your journey, enjoy every moment. And I look forward to hearing your stories along the way. 😍 Suzanne
Thank you Suzanne. It has been a long time coming, but it feels so wonderful to have so many people getting to know her. 😘
My heart goes out to you, it is actually my sons 22nd birthday today. I will definitely follow your journey and will love to get to know your beautiful baby girl Bree.
Rosie xxx 💚🧡
Thank you Rosie. It will be lovely to have you get to know Bree x
Beautiful Mumma Karen,
Losing a small child must be the hardest loss of all.
Thank you for sharing, l look forward to hearing more about your gorgeous girl Bree. Xxx
Thank you so much Nic. Yes, terrible loss that has no word for it. She packed lots of personality into her short time, so will be nice to share it here. xx
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